Hi again!
As I was cleaning up a death cocktail of a biology experiment, I focused my thoughts to the communion hymn that had been floating around my head all day. The only distinct words I could remember were "feed us, Lord" at the beginning of the chorus. You all know how annoying it, when you can remember all of the tune, but not the words? So, the only way I was going to resolve this was to sit down and think about the words. (Google is useless in these cases.) Instead of remembering more words from the song, which I knew was asking God for communion, "feed us, Lord" and "feed us, Lord" cycled over and over in my mind until FEED ME, FEED ME blared threateningly.
Ouch.
How in the world has God survived in the same universe with us humans, screeching and pleading, but more often demanding for 24/7, 7 days a week... for approx. 7 thousand years? We can barely put up with the thought of each other's presence sometimes. Now try adding up every person in the universe for all of the years past, present and future, but not only an image of them,but their thoughts, desires, natures, all their actions and everything they didn't do... in its entirety. Again, the mere thought of it is overwhelming to us. And we're sinful. Our natures are contrary to God's. Why on earth haven't our "FEED ME, FEED ME"s caused God to forsake us? Why not? With God's perfect nature vs our sinful nature and his infinite knowledge of what comes out of this sin, why is He did be become our Savior?
Maybe I should have labelled this a rant post instead of a musings post. But then I hope this certainly won't end in a state of despair.
The best answer I've got is... He love us! At first, this seems flat. This seems too short. Wheres the syllogisms and logical connections, stepping from one truth to another? Then I have to remind myself, God isn't limited by logic. His power, presence and understanding surpasses these things. But ya know what? His Spirit is powerful! He helps us to embrace the things He tell us in His Word! Isn't that great? We're not blind or frustrated or confused - we believe!
Back to God. He loves us! He love accepts even our blunt and angry cries, but He doesn't leave them or us. He changes us into children that know His voice, His love and follow it.
1. We're ugly, puny and sinful
2. He loves us.
3. He laid his stake down and eternally claimed us.
4. He changes us into beautiful, pure, loving children of God who think His thoughts after Him.
So.. maybe God's plan is the best. Maybe I shouldn't be frustrated or unhappy. I honestly couldn't think of a better happy ending than that.
Thank you for journeying with me, even through the crazy moments!
Love,
Sarah
I'm Not For Me
